When bad things happen...
My swollen IV'd hand is bigger than my Dad.
Just me after my Doctor's visit explaining my tests results.
Just me on my 1st day at the hospital
Pretty patient posing for Sick and Glam! (lol)
Hi everyone!
I am so sorry if I haven't been here for a long time. It has been a very terrible and depressing time for me lately. I just couldn't find it in my heart to write even one word on this blog during those times. Thank God I'm okay now.
Yes, we received our NOA2 -- but instead of rejoicing, we are frustrated and disappointed. Let's just say recession has taken its toll on our relationship. Period.
Then I got very depressed, working with my "not-so-motivating-colleagues" even made working worse. All I can say is, they don't have the right to say bad things about me because they have NO IDEA what I am going through. A bunch of hypocrites. I wonder if they would make it through another day if they were in my shoes. Have you ever been so low in your life when nothing seems to be making sense? You start to feel sorry for yourself and get into that depressing pit. I was guilty of letting my personal life affect my work - and I was very aware of it. I just needed some time on my own. But ofcourse, you can't expect the "other-not-so-understanding-people-out-there" to understand, right? Instead of minding their own business and going about their own tasks - they go about MY business and say bad things when I pass by. One even had the nerve to say " (says name of person), you are doing great! I am glad your love life is not affecting your work." -- Huh?!?! As if that person is going through the same thing I am going through!?!? Oh yeah, of course, they feel so high and mighty specially when they see other people suffering and in pain. I wonder what made them that way. I really pity them. They need to know how it is to be human. They need to know how to live. Seriously! As if adding insult to injury, they have been attacking me from behind my back. They were reporting all sorts of things to my immediate superior -- wow! As if they themselves are not guilty of the very accusations that they are accusing me of! The world really is a very crazy world. I can't believe I am working amongst heartless people. I am really glad my immediate superior took the time to hear my side of the story.
Just when I was rearing to get my acts together - I got sick and was confined at the hospital. Nope, not because of H1N1 (though I secretly prayed it is the case so I can finally rest in peace and haunt those who had done me wrong! I would love to see that look on their face when my ghostly apparition appeared before them! A very tempting and interesting thought I should say! lol). I had some inflammation on my left kidney and was the reason why I suffered an on and off fever with occasional body malaise. I just felt so weak. I honestly thought I wouldn't make it through the night when I started to chill. It was frightening but reassuring in a way. I am not sure if that statement even made sense at all.
Anyway, I am back and with a vengeance.
Thank you everyone for your continued support.
Cacai, Meryl and to all my fellow bloggers out there, thank you for dropping by - little did you know, your smiles made me smile too during my darkest hours. For that I am very thankful I have friends like you out there.
Till then and God bless! :) Read more...
